It is not irrational to want to be loved.
Everyone needs to be loved. Everyone. Including you.
If you are hungry and you go into a restaurant, expecting to find food, and they have no food to serve you, does that mean you are not hungry anymore?
Just because he isn’t loving towards you doesn’t mean that you don’t need to be loved.
We were designed to love and to be loved.
And you are worthy of love.