So much anger and frustration.

Fear.  Sadness.

I feel so insane.  I don’t know which way is up or which way is down.  Don’t know what to think or even how to feel.  Or rather, how to acknowledge my feelings.

So much pain.  Pain. Pain. Pain.

Feeling crushed. Wishing I could die.

I’m sitting here stuffing my face with chocolate chips.  My comfort.  I cry out to God, wondering if He hears, wondering if He cares.

One day I doubt my resolve to leave.  The next, I have no doubt.  Only fear.

So much pain.  Unreality.  Insanity.

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5 Responses to emotions

  1. hiddinsight says:

    He can hear you. I don’t know your situation, but I just wanted to reassure you that He is listening.

  2. K says:

    He hears you. I so understand. :-/

  3. He is there and he hears. He is just waiting for you to trust him and make your move. We are all under our own free will.

  4. Go watch a horror movie. Or an action flick, or anything really that will cause your neurochemistry to disrupt majorly. You’ll feel a lot better after a “cognitive recalibration” like that.
    It’s completely normal to feel insane or horrible and sad with the situation you’re in. Make sure you realize that it’s that asshole of a husband of yours that is MAKING you feel like that. Use your anger.
    Lots of support, hang in there!

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