I sure could use a friend today. Someone who gets it, who really cares. Someone who might possibly know the right things to say. Who would hold me and comfort me.
I woke up so depressed this morning.
I had a wonderful dream last night. I dreamed Someone (I’ve blogged about him) liked me, really liked me and wanted to be with me. I felt so warm and desired. It was such a good feeling.
And then I woke up feeling so incredibly depressed. And of course, my real life is nothing like my dream.
I feel like I will never get out of all of this. (How many times have I written that????)
I applied for a job weeks ago that I really, really, really want. I got a first interview, but haven’t heard yet whether I will get a second interview. Sometimes I believe it’s possible that I could get the job and other times I’m scared to death that I won’t get it. I want it so badly. The job seems so good for me in several different ways and I know I would be good at it. I’m trying to be patient and not be discouraged and just take what comes bravely, but I’m still scared.
Anyhow, it would be nice to have a friend today.