I feel like I have become a terrible person in this relationship and I wonder if I will carry the “habits” that I have with my husband into another relationship, if I ever get to have another relationship.
My blog points out so many things that he does wrong – I don’t even write about everything! – I wonder if I am a negative, critical person and will just find everything wrong with someone new.
I know that open communication is important for a healthy relationship, but many, many, many times, I hide what I think and even what I do from my husband because I don’t want to be “punished” for it. Will I be afraid to share in a new relationship?
Will I go into a new relationship expecting whoever I am with to not like me, to not be good to me, like I do with my husband?
Will I seek out “crumbs” from other men if I am with someone else?
Will sex make me cry?
I wonder these things and it makes me scared.