I have done so many things wrong in my marriage. (Some time I will try to list some of them for you.) There are so many things I’ve learned in the past few years about being a good wife and it makes me realize how much I have done wrong.
For years I studied how to be a better wife. And I tried. I really truly tried. But I know even more now. I understand myself better now, too, and I think that makes a difference as well.
So where does that leave me?
Sometimes I think I want to try again, to try some more, simply because divorce is so scary. Sometimes I want to try again because I feel like I have been unfair to him, not understanding as much as I do now.
But then I wonder if it would even matter. Even if I were “better,” he would still be passive aggressive, right? It still wouldn’t make a difference, right?
It might seem better for a couple of days, or a week, but then I am afraid he would revert back to passive aggression.
I can’t even believe I am writing this post! I was looking for the link to a quote that I know is on my blog and I found this post. (See post.) When will I ever learn???
Here is the quote I was looking for:
“…passive-aggressive behavior fractures relationships that would otherwise thrive.”
And here is the link to the post (see post.)
Well, I guess maybe I just needed to write about this tonight to help myself remember it again.