He asked me if I wanted to meet him at a certain restaurant near where I work for dinner tonight.
Well, I don’t.
But I said, sure.
Why don’t I give myself a voice? Why don’t I say, well, no, not really, no, I don’t want to meet you for dinner?
Why do I protect his feelings, but not protect my feelings?
And maybe the bigger questions are – although the “whys” may help in the process to the bigger questions –
How do I change?
WHEN do I change?
I have a friend in another country who says something to the effect that if you like the way things are going, then keep doing the things you are doing. But if you don’t like the way things are going, then do something different.
A few minutes ago, I was thinking – what is one thing that I could do different today?
And you’re all saying, “tell him no!”
Maybe I’m not brave enough for that yet.
But I’ll see if I can come up with one thing to do different, so maybe my life will start to be different.