I talked with another therapist person this morning.
My company has an Employee Assistance Program that offers counseling and referrals for further help as needed. I can have three free counseling sessions with a person from the EAP company. I found out, too, that they have a crisis number that I can call 24/7 to talk to someone anytime I need to.
So I talked with a therapist with the EAP company this morning.
I told her about my childhood trauma and about other “abandonments” in my life. I told her some about my marriage, but the session was more about me and my overall life rather than just the marriage specifically. Which was fine.
She was very kind and very compassionate. She listened very well and she seemed to comprehend everything that I was telling her. And she did not suggest counseling for my “marriage.”
She did tell me that I had depression – no surprise there – and anxiety.
I spoke of it in terms of fear, but she said it was anxiety, and not fear.
She said that she thought that therapy with the right person would help me a lot so I don’t have to keep struggling with these things. She also suggested medication, but she was understanding of the fact that I don’t want to use medication if I can at all avoid it.
In Toastmasters yesterday, after I had already made this morning’s appointment, one of my friends there gave me the name of a therapist who helped him tremendously.
I had told the therapist this morning that I was looking for someone to help me with the childhood trauma of abandonment and how it has affected me, so she was going to help me find someone to work with. But I also told her about the therapist that was recommended to me. And she knew that therapist! So she was able to tell me that she thought that he would be a good counselor for me to work with.
She did say that if for some reason it did not work out with this counselor, that I could come back to her and we could talk again and she could help me find someone else.
She was so kind and so understanding and so encouraging. It was really comforting.
Even though initially I was a little apprehensive about going to talk to her, I am so very, very glad that I did.
And I think I am going to send her a card telling her thank you.