I will be losing my job.
My company was bought by another company and my “position is being eliminated.”
I have about another month before my last day so at least I have a little time to look for something else.
On another note, I went to a new therapist.
This might sound funny, but she was so kind and so compassionate that it made me feel uncomfortable! I’m much more used to being in a matter-of-fact environment than one of such utter care. I think, though, that she will be very helpful.
She actually didn’t say a whole lot at the first appointment. I did most of the talking. But when I told her that I moved to sleep in the living room after he sexually assaulted me, she seemed truly shocked that I was the one who moved into the living room. But we didn’t really discuss it.
We did talk a little about the fact that I feel like I don’t matter. She wants to help me see that I do matter.
The counselor that I went to before helped me with that some, to see that I have intrinsic value. But obviously, I have a lot more work to do.
The counselor that I went to before was a man. I did tell him about the sexual assault, but I think this lady, this new therapist, will be able to help me more with it and with some of the other traumas in my life.
I really do hope so. I feel like I made progress with the other counselor, but I also see that I still have a lot more healing to do.