Tag Archives: unloved

why I’m stuck

I think maybe I figured out why I’m stuck. I think it is because I believe I don’t deserve any better. I’m not worthy to be loved and cared for.

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can’t even imagine…

I read three posts today on love. This one:  How to Stay Together in a World That Can’t Stop Breaking Up This one:  How to Find the Courage to Love Again And this one:  Relationship Salve: The Practice of Intentional … Continue reading

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stuck

I don’t think I will ever have the courage to leave. And I don’t think anyone will ever truly want me, truly love me. I don’t think I’ll ever get to make love. I think I am stuck here until … Continue reading

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I’m still here

Hi. I’m still here. I’m still struggling. I’m still stuck. I’ve been going to the counselor and that is starting to help me, but I still have a long way to go. One thing I talked to him about was … Continue reading

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empty inside

I feel so empty inside.  My heart hurts, longing to love and to be loved. My body aches, wanting so badly to be touched, to be held, to make love. My husband has been being nothing but kind since he … Continue reading

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wanting comfort…

I am feeling crazy today.   I want to be comforted, to know that I am not crazy, to know that it is all going to be okay. I wore my wedding ring yesterday.   Call it an experiment. Today I finally … Continue reading

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wanting to be cared for…

I want to be loved and cared for, but this, too, makes me feel crazy on a couple of different levels. I feel bad about wanting to be loved and cared for because I haven’t yet figured out which part … Continue reading

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too many cookies ~ too little love

Thursday evening, I took my cat, Tiger, to the vet.  He was a very sick little kitty, which I didn’t realize until the vet told me so.  He has two issues going on.  Both of them are contagious to cats … Continue reading

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fog

Surrounded by fog. Surreal. Filled with pain. Feeling hopeless. Unloved.  Unlovable. Tears welling up.  Again.  Always. Will the sun ever shine?

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Substitutes

Yesterday I sat on the floor in my room, eating chocolate, looking at my clutter, and I thought, these are substitutes. I live my life with substitutes, not the real thing. What I really want, need is love.  To love, … Continue reading

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