Tag Archives: me

what’s your hell?

I’ve been wanting to ask that question for a long time now. Here’s my hell: Unrequited love. Putting time and energy into people and things that don’t love me back. Holding on to people and things that don’t love me … Continue reading

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The Reasons You Can’t Lose Weight

(I did not write this.) by Catherine L. Taylor Here is a list of the most common reasons why people can’t lose weight. 1. You may be taking in more calories than you’re aware of. Even if you’re eating healthy, those … Continue reading

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why I’m stuck

I think maybe I figured out why I’m stuck. I think it is because I believe I don’t deserve any better. I’m not worthy to be loved and cared for.

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random thoughts

Sometimes – too often – I feel like my life is some agonizing, never-ending endurance course, with each minute a struggle just to make it through every second. And I wonder when the struggle ends.  Will I always be like … Continue reading

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crazy, stupid fantasies

I have these crazy, stupid fantasies. Like, one day, I will be free from this … this whatever it is. Like, one day, someone will actually love me. I feel so crazy. But I really don’t want to be crazy. … Continue reading

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looking out for myself

This past Friday was my birthday, my fiftieth (wow!) birthday. I made plans for myself, to do something for me that I wanted to do. And I didn’t tell my husband. Naturally, this upset my husband and, of course, there … Continue reading

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I miss my bedroom

I miss my bedroom. I miss sleeping in my bed.  My bed.  The bed frame, the headboard and the foot board, belonged to my great aunt. I miss my vanity.  My bed, that belonged to my great aunt, has a … Continue reading

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feeling crazy

I have felt crazy today. Maybe there is just too much going on. I’ve been sick for the past couple of weeks with some sort of weird cold/flu sort of thing.  I don’t usually get sick.  And when I do, … Continue reading

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Still here…

I miss blogging. I  don’t have another job yet, even though I’ve had a number of interviews.  I’ve been enjoying my days without work, but I need to start looking for more stuff to apply for. It’s still really, really, … Continue reading

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losing my job and another therapist

I will be losing my job. My company was bought by another company and my “position is being eliminated.” I have about another month before my last day so at least I have a little time to look for something … Continue reading

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