Monthly Archives: November 2014

I can’t see beyond this

I can’t see beyond this. I can’t see anyone loving me. I can’t see having a house that isn’t dilapidated. I can’t see not struggling with depression. I can’t see having a job that is more fulfilling for me. I … Continue reading

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Thanksgiving Day

Thank you to all of you for reading my blog. I started my blog – three years ago today! – to unburden my thoughts and emotions here rather than constantly unburdening them to my very sweet, kind, patient brother. I … Continue reading

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this is beautiful…

(The poem below was posted on the blog of Dr Bill Wooten.  Click here for original post.) Self- Observation Without Judgment Release the harsh and pointed inner voice. it’s just a throwback to the past, and holds no truth about … Continue reading

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well that was just generous

He gave me an extra $40 for Thanksgiving. Now, maybe my sisters and my sister-in-law could do Thanksgiving for 14 people for $40, but extreme frugality is not one of my strengths. I guess I’ll be paying for Thanksgiving. But … Continue reading

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anxious about counseling

I made an appointment to see the counselor that the man from Toastmasters recommended.  The counselor’s name is Fred. Fred emailed documents consisting of the usual stuff: forms for name, address, SS#, insurance info,  directions to the office, etc. There … Continue reading

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last night / tonight

Okay, so last night I couldn’t get him to leave the house and go visit his parents so my daughter could call her sister.  (See post.) Tonight he decides he needs to go help his parents and spends an hour … Continue reading

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craziness

I can’t function tonight. I don’t know how to describe it. I haven’t gotten enough sleep this week.  I’ve been too emotional this week and cried way too much.  I feel like I haven’t handled things well this week.  Maybe … Continue reading

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Johnnies

A couple of weeks ago in Toastmasters, during Table Topics, I got the question, how do you feel about the coming of winter? In case you don’t know, Toastmasters is an organization dedicated to improving speaking and leadership skills.  And … Continue reading

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another therapist

I talked with another therapist person this morning. My company has an Employee Assistance Program that offers counseling and referrals for further help as needed.  I can have three free counseling sessions with a person from the EAP company.   … Continue reading

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I hate crumbs

Okay.  Maybe I don’t hate crumbs.  I actually like crumbs. They make me feel warm and happy. But then the warm and happy wears off and I feel so cold and empty. And then I wish the crumbs hadn’t been … Continue reading

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