Tag Archives: sadness

stuck

Posted on February 22, 2015 by Writing about Passive Aggression

I don’t think I will ever have the courage to leave. And I don’t think anyone will ever truly want me, truly love me. I don’t think I’ll ever get to make love. I think I am stuck here until … Continue reading →

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“I try to be nice”

Posted on April 28, 2014 by Writing about Passive Aggression

What does “I try to be nice” actually mean? Last night, I lost it. I was crying and crying because I felt like I really couldn’t take it anymore.  He came in the kitchen and asked if he could do … Continue reading →

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a loss….

Posted on April 30, 2013 by Writing about Passive Aggression

A man here at work is in the National Guard.  We talk sometimes and so he is sort of a friend.  He also works out at the same gym that I do and sometimes he is leaving the gym about … Continue reading →

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a little sad…..

Posted on April 4, 2013 by Writing about Passive Aggression

It’s raining because I am sad. I’m only a little sad, though.  Not a lot sad.  Not deep, dark, rolling waves of black depression sad.  Just a little sad. This afternoon I was thinking that I really didn’t want to … Continue reading →

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fog

Posted on January 11, 2013 by Writing about Passive Aggression

Surrounded by fog. Surreal. Filled with pain. Feeling hopeless. Unloved.  Unlovable. Tears welling up.  Again.  Always. Will the sun ever shine?

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maybe it’s me…

Posted on December 17, 2012 by Writing about Passive Aggression

Maybe nobody could love me. Maybe I’m not enough. Maybe there can’t be any more in a relationship for me than this emptiness. Maybe I’m not lovable. Maybe it’s me…..

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random stuff

Posted on October 30, 2012 by Writing about Passive Aggression

Not this past week-end, but the week-end before, my picture was in the newspaper!  The story was in a Sunday insert and it was about the program that I took earlier in the year.  There was a picture of me … Continue reading →

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emotions

Posted on October 20, 2012 by Writing about Passive Aggression

So much anger and frustration. Fear.  Sadness. I feel so insane.  I don’t know which way is up or which way is down.  Don’t know what to think or even how to feel.  Or rather, how to acknowledge my feelings. … Continue reading →

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Codependents

Posted on October 14, 2012 by Writing about Passive Aggression

“Codependency is an unfair and uneven exchange of energy, time, and concern.” “Codependent[s] …  will exert more energy into another’s healing process than they put into their own.” “The codependent is one who ‘is so afraid to tell you what … Continue reading →

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TMI

Posted on September 22, 2012 by Writing about Passive Aggression

I am so ashamed to write this. I almost didn’t write it but since my blog is my story, I have to write it. I let him have sex with me this morning. He started touching me and I want … Continue reading →

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