A few days ago, my husband told me that the tires on my daughter’s car needed to be rotated. I asked him if I needed to take them someplace to get them rotated. He was quiet and then said, hmmm, yeah.
I told him that didn’t inspire much confidence. I told him that I didn’t know anything about rotating tires and that I was asking him for his advice.
He then said that I could take the car to Ryan (our awesome, honest mechanic), that he could rotate the tires for me, that Josh (his employee) could rotate the tires, or I could get it done someplace that would be expensive.
I said, thank you.
I decided to take the car to Ryan. If I asked my husband to do it, I don’t know when he would actually do it. Also, and maybe this is completely unfair, I would have a doubt in my mind, a fear, that what if subconsciously, he didn’t do it as carefully as he should. He knows my/our daughter hates him. What if … Anyhow, like I said, maybe that is completely unfair of me. I don’t doubt that Josh would do a good job, but I still decided to take the car to Ryan.
So my daughter and I dropped off the car last night. This morning, I get a call and the lady who works for Ryan tells me that the front tires are past needing to be replaced and the back tires are at the place where they need to be replaced.
Great. Lovely. Fantastic. Wonderful.
Just what my bank account needed.
Really? There seems to be some wicked plot against me to spend all the money I earn as fast as I earn it so I can’t save any money to leave! Really!
I keep thinking, maybe I’ll get an awesome raise in a few months, but what if I don’t? I can’t support me and my daughter and help my other daughter on what I earn now. And my savings aren’t growing very fast.
Every day I feel more desperate to get out.
Is this God, or the universe, or however you want to look at it, telling me to stay? Or is this just more of the endurance test that is my life?
I reminded myself that I am thankful that at least I do have the money to buy the car for my daughter to use and that I am thankful that I do have the money to get the tires replace.